You have searched me, Lord,
and you know me.
you know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.
Before a word is on my tongue
you, Lord, know it completely.
You hem me in behind and before,
and you lay your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
photo cred: Lauren Miller
It’s my birthday! What better way to celebrate by spending a little time in the Word?
I think these particular passages are appropriate. Twenty-two years ago, I was born. And even before then, God knew me. He knew me before anyone even knew or even thought about me! He knows who I will become. He knew everything that would and will happen to me. Despite all the bad things, he gave me life because he wanted to love me. He wanted me here for a purpose and even though I don’t know what that is yet, he is preparing me for it!
For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.
My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes saw my unformed body;
all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.
How precious to me are your thoughts, God!
How vast is the sum of them!
Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand—
when I awake, I am still with you.
God knows all of me. Every part. He knows everything that I’ve done wrong. He knows my sins and the darkest parts of my heart, the most selfish thoughts that I have. He knows them all! Even before I think them myself – before I know them myself! He knows them all and he continues to love me unconditionally and teaches me with kindness and patience. What an amazing God we have! He loves me despite everything I’ve ever done and will ever do! It’s such an awesome, over-powering feeling to think that and know he loves me, died for me, forgives me endlessly. I wish I could love him the way he loves me. I wish I had that capacity to love!
Search me, God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.
That is my prayer for today. As the song (can’t remember which one) says, I want God to burn away every part of me that isn’t for him.
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